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StankDawg

I awoke one morning to find this message in IRC at around 5 AM.

--> Peroxyde (Dylan@omghax-4CF3650B.home.cgocable.net) has joined #binrev

<Peroxyde> Huh, just as pathetic as I expected.

<Peroxyde> Kudos on ruining the community, StankDawg.

<-- Peroxyde has quit (Quit: SHAZAM)

This is the shit that I have to put up with... Is there no wonder why I want to quit?

StankDawg

FIRST!

This is the first post in the first blog in the new integrated blogging system. We have installed the module and we are deciding how we will roll this out to our users and which users will have the abilities to use it.

Be patient and stay tuned for more information!

StankDawg

Microsoft double fail

This stock ticker screen in manhattan failed thanks to a wonderful Microsoft windows error. But what makes this extra crispy double ironic fail is that the stock that was on the screen when it failed… You guessed it: MSFT

Also bonus fail is included with the stockholder only conference call number and password right on the screen. There is just so much wonderful fail in this picture that I want to frame it and hang it on my wall.

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StankDawg

I got my library card!

Well, this post makes it official. I always hated blogs because people post the stupidest most inane shit that no one could care about and here I am posting about getting my library card.

I have hit a new low. :(

But fuck that libraries fucking ROCK! I have had a library card almost everywhere that I ever lived! For some reason, since I moved to Orlando, I just didn't get around to getting one. I thought about it and realized that these days, whenever I need a book, I just buy it. Fuck that...I already pay taxes and those taxes fund the library so why wouldn't I take advantage of it?

I always loved the library, even as a kid, but it was when I graduated high school and started college that I really started to live in the library. I mean that almost literally. When I was just out of high school and starting college, I spent a lot of time in the library on campus. It was awesome because they pretty much knew that it was just for students on campus and that students were famous for falling asleep in the library so there were several comfortable couches and chairs all over. I found a nice quiet corner in a remote part of the top floor and took a nice stack of books and just went up there to a nice little couch and read until I fell asleep. It was a great way to kill time between classes and catch a few winks. I had my handy-dandy datalink watch (model 150)to wake me up in time for class, so I was straight. I could have lived there (cafeteria was nearby).

But that library was fairly small and mostly contained textbooks. I had read most of the computer related ones that I was interested in and ran out of things to read. Luckily, the public library was only 4 or 5 blocks away. I would walk down to the local library, which was HUGE in comparison, and they had magazines and public computers to use, and just tons of stuff to stay interested. I would go to classes all day and then go to the library until well after dark.

Eventually, I got used to being a regular at that library and started exploring other parts of downtown Louisville KY. I found that if you wear a Doctors lab coat (which I conveniently had ;) ) then you were allowed to freely roam throughout many of the numerous hospitals that were in downtown Louisville. Now, I didn't do anything crazy or dangerous. I just wanted to do some exploring. Cafeterias in hospitals have the best food ever! then, I stumbled upon a University of Louisville medical Library inside of their practicing hospital downtown. Man, there was all kinds of crazy shit in there! Lot so of medical journals and a huge number of medical reference books. This was not really my cup of tea, but it was pretty awesome to know that it existed for the medical students and I did, on occasion, look up a few things that I was curious about. I became an expert on female genitalia, if I do say so myself. ;)

Unfortunately, that is when the real world set in for me. I was maybe 19 or 20 or so and my family was not rich. It came to a point where I had to get a couple of extra jobs to be able to pay for my college tuition and books. This pretty much took all of my free time (and most of my sleeping time). I began working 5 jobs and taking a double load of classes and my love affair with the library came to an abrupt end. Looking back, maybe I should have apologized to the library for abandoning it, but I digress.

How was that for too much information? So yeah, this library is nowhere near as exciting, but I am hopeful that it will re-spark my interest in reading again. I haven't read any fiction or read for any entertainment purposes for along time. I am hoping to find more time to do this instead of just reading technical manuals. So yeah, this was a blog post about me getting my library card...but hopefully I put a little "Stank" on the story so that it is not as lame as it sounds. ;)

If I ever post about what I have for breakfast...kill me. :blink:

StankDawg
United States Department of Defense Embraces Hacker Certification to Protect US Interests

ALBUQUERQUE NM, March 1, 2010 - The U.S. Department of Defense (DoD) announces the official approval of the EC-Council Certified Ethical Hacker (CEH) certification program as a new baseline skills requirement for U.S.cyber defenders. Specifically, the new Certified Ethical Hacker program is required for the DoD's computer network defenders (CND's), a specialized personnel classification within the DoD's information assurance workforce.

The Certified Ethical Hacker requirement falls under the auspices of DoD Directive 8570 Information Assurance Workforce Improvement Program. The current version (incorporating Change 2) was signed by Assistant Secretary of Defense, John G. Grimes and was officially instated on February 25, 2010. Directive 8570 provides clear guidance to information assurance training, certification and workforce management across all components of the DoD.

The CND groups protect, monitor, analyze, detect, and respond to unauthorized activity within DoD information systems and computer networks.

With this directive, military service, contractors, and foreign employees across all job descriptions must show 100-percent compliance with the new Certified Ethical Hacker training requirement by 2011. This shows the DoD's focus on better training and preparation of the U.S. military workforce in this area.

The Certified Ethical Hacker qualification tests the certification holder's knowledge in the mindset, tools and techniques of a hacker, fortifying it's certification tag line: "To beat a hacker, you must think like one."

"CEH has been selected due to the immense technical and tactical nature of the certification," said Jay Bavisi, co-founder and president of EC-Council. "It is one of the most technically advanced certifications on the directive for CND professionals. In fact, it is the only certification approved across four out of the five categories to prepare the CND teams. While other policy-based programs add value, CEH prepares the U.S. CNDs to combat hackers in real time, defending U.S. interests globally."

Bavisi added: "We have been researching this space for quite some time and with this mandate from the DoD, there has never been a better time for us to beat the hackers at their own game. We are racing to research complex hacker techniques and in the next release of our CEH program, we hope to showcase in over 150 modules, detailed and extremely complex attack and countermeasures that will help raise the level of knowledge of the CND teams."

KEY FACTS:

· CEH is now formally integrated into the certification requirements for U.S. DoD IA Workforce

· CEH is now required for CND Analyst, CND Infrastructure Support, CND Incident Responder, and CND Auditor as defined by

Directive 8570

· Newly revised DoD 8570 is available at http://www.dtic.mil/whs/directives/corres/pdf/857001m.pdf

· More information about EC-Council and Directive 8570 can be found at https://www.eccouncil.org/about_us/dod_8570.aspx

ABOUT EC-COUNCIL:

The International Council of E-Commerce Consultants (EC-Council) is a member-based organization that certifies individuals in cyber security and e-commerce skills. It is the owner and developer of 16 security certifications, including Certified Ethical Hacker (CEH), Computer Hacking Forensic Investigator (CHFI) and EC-Council Certified Security Analyst (ECSA)/License Penetration Tester (LPT). Its certificate programs are offered in over 60 countries around the world.

EC-Council has trained over 60,000 individuals and certified more than 26,000 members, through more than 450 training partners globally. These certifications are recognized worldwide and have received endorsements from various government agencies including the U.S. federal government via the Montgomery GI Bill, Department of Defense via DoD 8570.01-M, National Security Agency (NSA) and the Committee on National Security Systems (CNSS).

EC-Council also operates EC-Council University and the global series of Hacker Halted security conferences. The global organization is headquartered in Albuquerque, New Mexico.

For more information about EC-Council, visit the website: www.eccouncil.org

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Look at me! I am qualified to be a cyber security czar...person..hacker...dude...something or other.

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StankDawg

I just got back from seeing an advanced screener for the movie KICK-ASS and I am not going to post the obvious comment that it "kicked ass".

Oh crap..i guess I just did...damn...anyway...

I am not supposed to comment on it to much and write a full review, but I have to say how incredibly awesome it was. This was the best movie that I have seen since Lord of the Rings. It was very accurate to the comic including some very violent stuff but it as all done in an appropriate way. It fits to the point and the message of the movie about being a super-hero. This was every bit as violent as sin city if you ever saw that.

The best part of the movie was Hit Girl. She stole the entire movie. Perfect casting, perfect acting, Hit Girl was the most amazing super hero in any movie, ever.

I know it doesn't come out for a month and a half, but GO SEE THIS MOVIE WHEN IT COMES OUT!

StankDawg

Hot Tub Time Machine

I saw an advanced screening of "Hot Tub Time Machine" last night and it was pretty funny, albeit a bit predictable. I don't need to bother with spoilers since the title pretty much explains the premise and there isn't much else. There really isn't much to this movie as far as plot goes but the thing that was so good was simply the dialogue. I felt like I related to every character in the movie in some way. I was just like the asshole character in some ways, especially waiting for the "arm thing" to happen (OK, that is a spoiler so you have to watch it). I was also a lot like the geeky character for obviously reasons. But so much of the dialogue was just the same type of shit that we talk about at our BR407 meetings or with my other friends. It was just the same kind of debates and arguments over silly things. My favorite line in the movie was an argument over what had just happened and it went something like this:

Jacob: This is scientifically possible!

Nick: Tell us how it's scientifically possible, Professor Hawking.

Jacob: I will, 'cause I write Stargate fan fiction; this is my bread and butter, man!

Nick: Oh my God, I seriously almost passed out you're such a dork.

I lolled several times in this movie. If you get a chance, I recommend it. It probably won't get the best reviews since it wasn't original or anythign special, but if you just want to see a good laugh out loud movie, go see it.

StankDawg

Yeah, so I guess I fail at being a normal red blooded American male. This chick that I was chatting up on one of those dating sites who lives like 5 minutes away from me pretty much offered a FWB relationship (I only recently learned that acronym myself so I provided a link to it for others who are as clueless as I am) and I said no.

I guess most people would consider that a perfect relationship. A good looking girl who wants sex with no strings attached and she is even conveniently located near where I live? What the hell is wrong with me? I wanted to. I thought about it, I will be honest. But I just am not looking for a "hook-up" at this point in my life. I am looking for "the one". I tried to convince myself that I can have both...I mean, who doesn't want to put a different game on "free play" while they wait to buy the game that they really want?

And if anyone got that last reference (you may think you did, but you probably didn't unless you are over the age of 30), then you really are a geek.

I hereby turn in my man card. :(

StankDawg

I just wanted to share a great compliment that I got while in San Francisco. I was in the elevator in my hotel and an older couple got on with me and we just chit-chatted as the elevator about the weather and whatever other small talk came up. As usual, I was myself and just used the manners that I was bought up with. After some "Yes ma'am" and "Yes sir" as they got off at their floor, I held the door for them as they got off of the elevator and wished them a good evening. As the door was closing I overheard them say something that was the best compliment that I have heard in ages. They said "He must be from the South".

After spending the last few years of my life with a woman who made me feel ashamed of my heritage and try to tell me that Southerners are all racists and stupid and worthless in every way, I felt proud to know that people don't associate the South with those things at all. Only ignorant people still think those stereotypes are true. It occurred to me that many people still recognize southerners for their hospitality, manners, and honesty.

It made me feel good. I am Southern and proud and will stay that way until I die.

StankDawg

So I have been watching this new pseudo-reality show on Discovery channel called "The Colony". I say pseudo-reality, because it is really more of a simulation of what reality might be like in a post disaster environment. They also chose people who clearly would have the skills necessary to survive. These are no everyday dramatards that you find on "the real world" or other reality shows (although there is some drama on occasion). They chose people with specific skillsets that they knew would actually be able to do the interesting things that would be necessary to survive. They chose 1 doctor and a nurse as part of the casts, surrounded them with several mechanics and engineers and some handymen and carpenters. This gives them the skills and knowledge necessary to do things that are needed to survive.

Here is an example: The are dropped off in an abandoned area outside of Los Angeles, CA where there are no other people with whom to interact (other than an occasion plant by the show to test them somehow). But the area that they were guided to was a giant warehouse that just coincidentally happened to have a lot of handy items in it like some canned food to get started, some gasoline and other types of fuel, and a large array of car batteries which is a great start for generating and storing power. I think this is pretty freaking awesome! As a person interested in survival anyway, I find this show intriguing because it shows not the hardcore "eat anything that moves" survival aspect of life, but a more realistic "use what you have laying around" type of survival. This plays very well to my hacker core.

One of my favorite characters is John who is a computer engineer. So the first thing to point out is that there is no power, no Internet, no computer anywhere around in this situation. But let me tell you, this guy is a freaking GENIUS! He is a geek MacGyver! He may be a computer scientist by title, but this guy knows more science than most science teachers that I have had. Not to mention the fact that he is a very gentle and caring human being. He is a bit of an old hippie, but that may be my end form in life. When it is all said and done and I am in my twilight years (if I am not already in them) that might be the same way that people describe me. This guy is one of the best parts of the show.

Another person that I like is Mike who is portrayed as the general handyman of the group with bonus knowledge of solar energy (how convenient that there were solar panels on a nearby building) which is apparently what he does for a living. He is a great example of someone who just works hard to get things done. He knows what he can do and just does it and if he doesn't know it, he figures it out. He proves that you don't need a PhD to be smart and accomplish a lot of things. There is another character on the show who is supposedly a rocket scientist (Aerospace engineer to be exact) named Morgan who is worthless. She has done nothing the entire show except get an old record player working to play music. She tried to help on other project but showed her ineffectiveness compared to o0thers like Vlad and John. Mike can be a bit of a dick sometimes, but I would gladly have him on my team anytime.

I highly recommend that you check this show out. I really think that it is must see for hackers of all kinds as well as anyone with an interest in survival. I definitely learned a lot of things so far on the show that I had never heard of before. I think you will as well.

StankDawg

NOTE: This post was originally made on the same date in 2005, not 2006.

First of all, I don't owe anyone an explanation individually. But since there are a few people out there who wonder why I am pulling out of the public scene, I thought I would try to explain my reasons in the hopes that maybe a few people would understand. I do not have a problem sharing these reasons, but if you intend to attack me for them, you should stop reading now. I don't want to hear it.

Basically, I unplugged for 2 general reasons. Firstly, I pulled out for personal reasons. Secondly, I pulled out because hacking wasn't fun anymore. For those of you who are genuinely interested, I will gladly explain.

As far as personal things go, you have to understand that the word personal infers that I am, in fact, a "person". Somehow people think that hackers are all a bunch of punk kids who have no real life problems and run around without a care in the world. Hackers are people. I am a hacker, but I still love my country. I still love my family. I believe in God. I am not ashamed to admit any of these things, but somehow people lose sight of the fact that we are all real people with real lives. We have real hopes and real dreams. We face real triumphs and real tragedies. We find real love and face real heartbreak. Life changing events happen and hacking takes a backseat to real life. If you have ever heard my radio show, you would know that I have said this many times. I guess now you all know that I meant it. Never let the important things in your life take a backseat to anything.

In my real life, I have had some pretty big events happen lately. I have kept them private while continuing to work on numerous projects to help keep my mind off of things. My 82 year old grandmother recently moved down here to South Florida. She is the only grandparent that I have left and I love her dearly. I have been spending as much time as I could with her lately. For the most part, she is healthy for an 82 year old woman, and she is blessed to be well enough to enjoy life and live independently. Spending quality time with her is my number one priority above all else on this planet. I have been able to balance my time with her and all of the other things in my life fairly well until last month. I had another life changing event that altered my path. I was offered a job that requires me to move out of South Florida and I accepted it. It is a great opportunity for me doing something I love (programming) and using my education and my 15+ years of experience in the computer industry. It was an offer that I could not refuse. This is a very good thing and I am very happy with these changes in my life and my grandmother is happy for me as well.

The reality that I am left with, however, is that I will be physically packing my entire life and moving within a month or so. In that time period, I must sell my house and buy a new house. This means packing up everything I own and repairing my old house to sell it, which is what I have been doing since the beginning of July. As if that weren't enough, I am determined to start this new job on the right foot and really attack it with every fiber of my being. Some of you out there know how hard I work and how I give 337% on everything I do, whether it is writing "show novels" for BRR, researching material for an article, or editing HackTV. I take pride in everything I do. I was always taught that anything worth doing, is worth doing right. I want to do my very best at this new job and after my grandmother, I intend to focus the rest of my concentration on this new job.

All of these events just made me step back and realize that the balance had shifted temporarily. I could no longer juggle hacking and life. I needed to borrow from my "hacking time" to pay my "real life time" to help counter-balance the needs that I now faced. I started making plans to slowly pull out a few months ago as these changes became imminent. I made sure that the radio show would be taken care of months ago (around episode 80 to put it in perspective) and I started asking the guys in DDP to pick up some of the slack for me and carry me for a while. These guys are all so great, that not one...not a single one of them...hesitated to rescue me. I probably don't tell them enough how much I appreciate them. They are not only friends, but they are like brothers to me. I was willing to completely leave the hacking scene to concentrate on real life, but they made it possible for me to stick around...and want to stick around. This leads me to the other reason I unplugged...

The other reason is that no matter how hard I tried to keep it fun, hacking ceased being fun to me. Certainly, the real life things probably weighed into that, but it was more than that. Hacking was slowly losing its fun day by day over the past year or so anyway. There are a lot of great people in this community. There is no doubt of that. I have met several of them at different conferences. I have gotten heartwarming email from them that helped my regain some of my love of hacking. I have seen and heard a lot of great comments from people and I appreciate them all. I sincerely do. But I also got a lot of negative mail and read lots of negative comments from people as well. And they seemed to far outway the positive comments. I see the blog posts of people attacking me and insulting me. I hear the comments people make on conferences. I see the insulting messages people post in forums ( even in my *OWN DAMN FORUMS*) or put in their videos. What did I do to deserve this? I thought we were all on the same team?

Now it is easy for people to say "just ignore people like that". And actually, I am very, VERY good at ignoring people like that. I simply do not have time in my life for negative people in general. I do my very best to help out anyone who asks. But slowly, over time, they start to weigh on you. There are people out there who need help. They don't understand what hacking is. They just don't get it. But that doesn't mean that they shouldn't be helped. They may just need guidance. I have met people who were complete jerks when I first met them. They didn't know that they were being jerks because no one ever told them that they were doing the wrong things. I like to teach people the right things. But sometimes, you can't help those who don't want to be helped. Maybe I come across too strong. I guess that is my weakness, that I speak my mind. May that makes me arrogant, I don't know. Anyone who really knows me, knows that they can ask me for anything and they know I will do as much as humanly possibly to help them out. All I can do is the best that I can. Some days, that just isn't enough for some people.

Then there are other little things that make me feel bad. I get messages from people who are angry with me that I didn't answer their email. They don't understand that I get literally dozens of emails every day and I simply cannot answer them all. I wish I could, but I simply can't. Logistically, I started to feel that I was stretching myself to thin. When you are the type of person who wants to help EVERYBODY and you don't have time to GET TO everybody, it gets frustrating. And I do not have any "real life time" to borrow from anymore to do that. This is slightly frustrating, but since there is simply nothing that I can do about it (I can't alter the flow of time...yet), I have to suck it up and move on with life the best that I can.

The proverbial straw that broke the camels back, was really nothing big or overly frustrating so much as simply bad timing. I was trying my very best to do everything that I could to keep contributing to this community to the best of my ability and to keep putting out content and balance all of the things that I have been talking about and suddenly, I hit the wall. I had enough. Had I seen another random person making a bad comment, I probably could have ignored it. Had I seen yet another blog of someone talking about how much one of my projects or articles sucked, I would have brushed it off. If I had seen another ignorant "journalist" using me to sell his fear-laden articles, I would have laughed it off. Instead, what I saw was someone who I thought was a friend publicly humiliate me at the precise moment when I needed support. When I was at the end of my rope, no one was there to give me a boost. Instead, they kicked me right off.

Now, it is irrelevant to single anyone out, particularly because they probably didn't mean it to come across the way that it did. I understand that, and I don't blame them. But what it did was open my eyes. I realized the hard truth that while there are some great people out there, there are others that simply don't care about you one way or the other. It does not matter how much you give to them, they are never satisfied. They cannot enjoy anything without criticizing it. I don't know what personality trait this is, or if it is more or less prevalent in the hacker community, but I don't like it. I suddenly opened my eyes to the fact that every single thing I do is scrutinized. Here I thought that I was educating people with a radio show and having fun. I was being made fun of. I thought that I was entertaining people with a hacking television show. I was being insulted. I thought that I was providing useful services and projects that people inside (and outside) of the community could enjoy. They were simply being attacked. The thing that I didn't understand, and the thing that bothered me most, was that while all of these people were bitching and complaining about me, not a single person stood up and defended me. Not a SINGLE ONE. No posts of support. No posts defending false allegations. Nothing but silent acceptance.

This is not what the hacking spirit is all about and I don't want to be a part of it right now. It is a terrible feeling to suddenly realize that nobody cares enough to have your back.

I will never understand why some people seem to think that constantly complaining and being negative about everything can ever generate anything positive. All that you do is chase people away. New people need advice and information. Don't insult them, help them! Returning people are looking for another chance. Reach out to them, do not reinforce the negative image that caused them to leave in the first place. And the people that have managed to stay around for any length of time...just support them. You don't have to agree with them. You don't have to like them. But you will respect them. I do not need my ego stroked, nor do I need to hear a "thank you". I just don't think that I deserve the personal attacks, scrutiny and lack of common courtesy that I have been given.

So I do thank the people who have emailed me in recent weeks. I do appreciate that some people cared enough about my well being to email me and say a simple "thanks" or to offer their help and sympathy for my well being. I am honestly touched. You leave me with a great joy to know that there are some people in this community who are genuine and good hearted people. My fellow hackers...my fellow human beings. If I do come back, after some hiatus, it is because of people like you. I cannot list everyone, but you know who you are. I do have to single out my fellow DDP members (past, present, and future) for all of their support. I am proud of what they have accomplished..what we have accomplished. Thanks for keeping hacking fun. Thanks to Acidus, Decius, Elonka, rockit, droops, GIJoe, Dr^Zigman, LogosX, PixelFiend, xlogicx, austin, and Zearle. All of whom were always positive and supportive people to whom I give much deserved respect. And even with all of this, I still have not forgotten about decoder who is going through some pretty rough real life stuff as well. I am still thinking of you my friend. Trust me when I say that *I* have got *your* back.

I am still around, just no longer in the public eye. I have to stick with those people who I trust to be good people and stay away from the critics and the community that simply doesn't want me. I don't have time to be hated. I will continue to write. I will continue to keep making sites and starting projects and programming. The sites/forum/shows/projects/etc... will stick around as long as I can afford them. The DDP will still exist and grow. I will never stop hacking because I love it. If anything, I am able to dedicate more time to it because of this. I have a lot of great friends in this community. They are friends that hopefully will last my entire lifetime. I will never stop hacking. It is a part of me. It is what makes up who I am.

I am StankDawg.

I am a hacker.

StankDawg

EFF Fundraiser 2009

What is this about?

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Most of you don't know my personal life, but I have been going through a rough year. You can look back through my blawg for some of the boring details. During this time, I have not gotten a haircut. I had grown a little mohawk/fauxhawk the last time I got it cut which was back in mid-June so even when I had it cut then, it was still pretty long on the top. Now, I have a full on "wh4fro" (White Afro...for hackers). So after a bad breakup, I pretty much decided to let my hair keep growing just for the fun of it and to "bring it back". I am rocking the visor and the old 70s white basketball player look and I can pull it off...well, I keep telling myself that anyway. I am ready to move on with my life and put 2009 behind me and move on to 2010 and start anew. I decided to rock this out until the end of the year and then start the new year with a haircut as a sort of "cleansing" act for my life.

So...I figured that since I will be cutting my hair anyway...why not dramatard it up with a full buzzcutt! I decided that I can use my pathetic whiny life to the benefit of someone else. One of my philosophies in life has always been that no matter how bad you think you have it, someone else has it worse and you can always help someone else. I want to apply this by turning my self-renewal into something positive for someone else. I have always supported the EFF so I thought that I would do a fundraiser to shave my hear for "Internet freedom"! How is that for a fucking dramatard announcement?

Here are the details:

As far as the haircut goes, I will do it over the Christmas break. I will take a set of clippers and just buzz right through it all...OK, I won't personally, but someone will buzz it for me. I will not shave it with a razor, just a buzzcut. I will film it for an episode of HackTV (probably the PWNED series, that sounds about right) for proof. You don't have to care about the haircut at all to donate and/or participate. The haircut is just my way of making this fun and trying to give my grown as a person some significance. You can ignore the haircut and do it totally for the perks listed below.

All money will be collected and donated to the EFF after the Christmas break. I will post totals. None of it will go to BinRev. I will eat the cost of the items listed below, including shipping. 100% of your donation will get to the EFF.

Whats in it for you?

We will accept donations of any size! All you have to do is submit your donation to orders@binrev.com which is our standard paypal account. Just put in a description or a note that your donation is for the EFF fundraiser and I will make sure that it gets included. If you donate one of the tiered amounts below, you will receive the benefits listed.

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  • Free 1 year membership to the financiers group with all of the benefits that it currently offers. If you already are a member of the financier group, I will extend it.
  • I will announce the HackTV episode in this group first, so you will be one of the first to see me make a fool out of myself.
  • My gratitude.

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FAQTHBAY (Frequently asked questions that have not been asked yet):

Q: How do I know that this will make it to the EFF?

A: I will provide totals and counts of all donations at the end.

Q: Can I donate anonymously?

A: Of COURSE! I will not drop docs. You can also donate directly to the EFF if you prefer.

Q: Why should I care if you cut your hair? What's the big deal?

A: LOOK AT THAT RIGHTEOUS FRO!!! Should I deprive the world of that gift? :cool:

Q: How long will it take to get my stuff?

A: Well, be patient with me. I will try to get everything out by the end of January 2010. I will get the accounts created as quickly as I can and hopefully as soon as I see the donation. Keep in mind that I will be out of town on vacation and then again on the Christmas holidays.

Q: Don't I remember you complaining about "beg-a-thons" back on BinRev Radio?

A: Yes. Actually, I just hate the beg-a-thon over and over again seemingly all the time. This is the first such event that I have conducted EVER so I don't feel like a total hypocrite...just a partial one.

Q: Can I be your "baby mama"?

A: I am single again. ;)

WHAT I NEED FROM YOU GUYS and GALS:

Publicity! I need you guys to get the word out. Even if people don't know or care about StankDawg or binrev, just get them to support the cause of the EFF! Emphasize that they will get perks of extra access to the forums, free blogs at binrev, and generally tell them what a great community we have here! Blog about it (you are using your free blogs here at binrev, right?) everywhere! Post in other forums. Do anything else that you think will get the word out and help[ us raise money for the EFF! I am sincere and I want this to be one of the biggest things that we have ever done. We have done smaller efforts in the past for the EFF, but in case this is my full retirement swan song (and I am not saying that it is or is not) I would like to leave something behind and feel that I helped someone in the process.

Participate! Hell, if anyone else wants to shave their head with me, upload some pics before/after and we can do it as a group! It will be fun! If you want to donate something for one of the tiers, let me know!

Support! Sincerely, this is all for the EFF. Put all of my sillyness and drama aside. I am having fun, but I am seriously trying to do something good here. I know times are tough, but please donate whatever you can. It will all go to the EFF and I will announce the totals and make sure it is all on the up-and-up. If you donate the amounts shown above, you will even get something to show for your donation from us. So you are getting something back for your donation. I will eat the cost of the shirts and magazines and shipping and all of that. 100% of your money will go to the EFF.

Please help us support this great cause.

StankDawg

I just got back in town from a business trip to NYC and it was a stressful trip as far as work goes, but a blast from a personal standpoint.

I went up a couple of days early (I went up a day early on the last trip also) and crashed with ntheory and hung out with him and decoder and some other friends in the area. Actually, by total coincidence, it turns out that I was on the same plane with my buddy Greg Conti two weeks ago and didn't even know it! When we arrived at LGA airport and I stood up after we landed and looked around, I see Greg in the back of the plane! I was like WTF? So he gave me a ride from the airport where he had parked his car and we caught up on the ride since I had not seen him since Defcon in July.

ntheory and I talked a lot of tech and went to see an open Fios box that he knew about and it is a good thing that we did. Before we could go back again, it was closed and locked up. We took a few pictures, but it was late at night and I am not sure what kind of quality they were. When I rip them from the camera, I will upload them to the gallery. We looked at a lot of code and bitched a lot about technology. We also discussed some options to being back Phreak Phactor and even got the site back up and running. I also found out that he loves the TV show called "Hell's Kitchen" although he is a bit embarrassed to talk about it.

Anyway, back to this particular trip, after hanging out and hax0ring the planet with ntheory, I went down to Brooklyn Saturday night to hang out with Front. Actually, we met up at a party that he told me about and hung out until about 1 or 2 AM. While there, he invited back down Sunday to drop some beats for him that he might use on the upcoming album. Now I have no delusions about being a famous beat boxer, it is just a fun thing that I have done since I was young, but I figured what the hell and did it just for the fun of it. If he actually got anything useful recorded, then great. It actually was a strange experience for me since I have never actually beat boxed into a microphone before and heard myself ... well, actually I think I might have done that with my mac one time to try out the camera and posted it in the financiers forum, but that wasn't the same. I actually learned a lot about audio engineering...not much of it stuck in my head, but I now understand and appreciate the equipment and audio quality more than I ever thought about before. When you beatbox, you are basically spitting directly into the microphone and we had to really do some adjusting to get the audio levels right, but he knew exactly what he was doing and got it to sound just right. The other weird thing was that I have never used an actually real microphone before. I am more of an old skool beat-box-into-your-hands kind of guy. I like that natural sound. I tried to use a few of my "tricks" as it were and I am not sure if they sounded good recorded or not. I still prefer just freestyling. Anyway, I heard a few of the early beats for the new album that he is just starting on and I can't drop any docs on anything, but they were pretty awesome. The album title is near and dear to my heart as well. Keep watching his site for any official news and join the VSP while you are there. You will get announcements early and access to extra songs and live tracks.

The flight itself was pretty interesting as well because I was on one of the planes that has wifi available. It costs 9.95 per flight to use it or they had other options for all day or all month use I think. I forget, but I started putting together a short article about it. Of course I did not pay. Pssshh... But I did get connected and had a lot of fun trying to chat in IRC from tens of thousands of feet in the air over the East coast. I even took a few pictures and uploaded them. I will try to post them later as well.

Look for the Dawg coming soon to a city near you!

StankDawg

So I was driving to meet some co-workers for lunch today and they are doing some roadwork near my house. There was this dude who was about a 30-35 years old fairly built black guy riding a bike along the side of the road. He was maybe 8 or 9 car lengths in front of me so I saw everything clearly. He veered off of the road (on his own, no traffic near him) and I am not sure if was trying to show off on purpose or not but what happened was pretty awesome.

There was a pile of dirt (in Florida, that means mostly sand) about 2 feet high right in front of him where he was turning off of the road. Now he might have been trying to show off or just have fun or he might not have seen it at all. He might have been trying to jump it or something because he was pedaling really fast. I don't know what was in his head. All I know is that he went straight into that pile of dirt and I watched his back tire come flying over his head and his face hit the dirt with such impact that his back legs flipped over his head. For a second I really thought that he could have seriously hurt himself. His back flew over the bike and for all I know he could have broken his spine. It was that fast and violent. I think it was lucky that the dirt here was so soft that saved him. If he had hit concrete or something hard, he might have really injured himself.

except the dirt mound was tiny and there was no cushion of dirt to land on. Also instead of a kid, imagine it was Mike Tyson riding the bike. I was amazed that I witnessed this in real life. IT WAS AWESOME! It is the kind of shit that you see one youtube when some idiot tries to do this intentionally and someone films it. Obviously he wasn't expecting this and neither was I so I didn't have any chance of recording it. I was so surprised that I actually witnessed something this freaking awesome that I didn't even really laugh...i just looked in my rear view mirror as I passed with my mouth hanging open.

Now here is where I am big stinky pussy.

I turn in at the next street which gave me a view directly back down the sidewalk/dirt path to where he was. I was too far to get out and help and I tried to yell and ask if he was alright but it was too far. He was getting up and seemed to be dusting the dirt off of his face and chest, but he was going pretty slow. So being the pussy that I am I turned my car around and drove back to make sure that he was ok and offer to help him. By the time I got back there, he was just climbing onto his bike and riding again. I just yelled out the window "are you ok?" and he nodded and just kept right on riding. And he was riding at full speed again I might add.

When I turned back around to continue on to lunch (at the Cracker Barrel, natch) he had turned down a side street and was clearly alright so after a few more seconds it hit me that he was alright and it was OK to laugh. My guess is that he though he was going to jump this little pile of dirt or something but he didn't think about the fact that it wasn't dirt hardened into a ramp. It was a clump of sand! Riding full speed into a soft pile of sand is not a good idea! The sand is not going to support you and launch you into the air...it is giong to move away from you and force you to come to a quick stop! It's called fundamentals of physics and IT WAS FUCKING HILARIOUS! I wish I had someone been able to film it.

Yeah yeah, i know it was one of those "you had to be there" stories...but it was funny dammit. I was lolling.

StankDawg

So my DVR list has a pretty wide range of shows on my list. I have confessed to the guilty pleasures of "American Idol" and "So you think you can Dance" and the train wreck that is "Jersey Shore". I also love standard popular shows like "LOST" and I just watched the season finale of "Heroes". Mix in some other shows like "Survivorman" and "man vs wild" and "Dog the bounty hunter". Throw in some expected shows like "mythbusters", "conspiracy theory with Jesse Ventura", and "the daily show". So what show could I tell you that would make you say WTF?

RuPauls Drag Race!

That's right, I said it. I watch a show about drag queens and think that it is FAB-U-LOUS! It is a world that I don't know anything about and I find it fascinating! I really do. I have to say that these men...er..women...err...yeah...anyway, these people are genuine and truly comfortable with who they are and I respect that they stand up and aren't afraid to be who they are. This may be a bit of a leap, but it is teh same way that I am not afraid to stand up and admit that I am a hacker.

I admit that their situation may be much harder due to social stigma, but hackers can relate at least o a small scale to having to hide who we are to certain people. There is a lesson here of tolerance and even though you may have laughed at the first part of this entry, I hope that you finish reading this post with a lesson. How can we expect other people to accept us for who we are if we don't accept other people for who they are. Or to put it into words that Rupaul says on the show...

"How can you expect anyone to love you, if you can't love yourself?"

That's right, I quoted RuPaul in a blog post on a hacking site. That is what makes me the dawg.

StankDawg

I will warn you up front that this is a very personal post and I am using this blog and will continue to do so for some sort of therapy of my own. I have found that typing things up helps get them off of my chest and helps me come to terms with things. I know, I know...take it to livejournal...but fuck that. This is my life and my blog. Yes, I am a hacker and all that, but I keep reminding everyone that I am also a human being. this is the blog of a hacker and a human being at the same time. If that makes it less interesting, so be it.

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If my year had gone the way that I planned it, I would have been proposing to someone today...Today would have been the first day of the rest of my life. The first day of my life that I was complete. As it turns out, that will not be happening.

People change their minds I guess. Things happen, people get scared, hell I don't even know what happened to be honest because I wasn't given an explanation. I was just dumped with no explanation at all. And for the past few months since that happened, I keep trying to find something that I did wrong to cause it. I know this sounds strange, but I almost wish that I *had* actually done something wrong or bad. I wish that I *had* cheated on her or used her or something like that just so that I at least have closure. At least then, I would have a reason to look at myself and feel bad and learn and grow from it and try to avoid making that mistake again. What I finally came realize was that I *didn't* do anything wrong. I *didn't* deserve this. This was NOT my fault.

Now wait a minute, don't be misled...I am no saint. I am not saying that I never did anything wrong. We had some arguments on occasion and while that is normal and healthy in some cases, sometimes it is not. There were occasion misunderstandings, but those happened both ways. This is also normal in my mind. If you love and trust your partner, then you work things like that out. But my point here is to say that I am sure that I made some mistakes and did or said some things that I regret (and apologized for) but so did she so I think we were even on that front.

But in the end, I was still planning on spending the rest of my life with this woman. We had discussed kids, including adopting one. We had even picked out names! We had discussed moving to a new house sometime in the future and I thought that she was the soulmate that I had waited my whole life for. She looked into my eyes 4 days before she left and told me "you are a good man". Apparently, that was until 4 days later when she dumped me over the phone and never came back. I deserve better than that. I deserve an explanation. I deserve a chance to work through whatever problems she thinks existed. I deserve a face to face explanation.

I deserve better.

So here I sit, in a hotel room in New York City, on 11/11. The day that I was going to propose. The day when my new life was going to begin. I have an engagement ring and no one to give it to. I am pretty pathetic.