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StankDawg

So my DVR list has a pretty wide range of shows on my list. I have confessed to the guilty pleasures of "American Idol" and "So you think you can Dance" and the train wreck that is "Jersey Shore". I also love standard popular shows like "LOST" and I just watched the season finale of "Heroes". Mix in some other shows like "Survivorman" and "man vs wild" and "Dog the bounty hunter". Throw in some expected shows like "mythbusters", "conspiracy theory with Jesse Ventura", and "the daily show". So what show could I tell you that would make you say WTF?

RuPauls Drag Race!

That's right, I said it. I watch a show about drag queens and think that it is FAB-U-LOUS! It is a world that I don't know anything about and I find it fascinating! I really do. I have to say that these men...er..women...err...yeah...anyway, these people are genuine and truly comfortable with who they are and I respect that they stand up and aren't afraid to be who they are. This may be a bit of a leap, but it is teh same way that I am not afraid to stand up and admit that I am a hacker.

I admit that their situation may be much harder due to social stigma, but hackers can relate at least o a small scale to having to hide who we are to certain people. There is a lesson here of tolerance and even though you may have laughed at the first part of this entry, I hope that you finish reading this post with a lesson. How can we expect other people to accept us for who we are if we don't accept other people for who they are. Or to put it into words that Rupaul says on the show...

"How can you expect anyone to love you, if you can't love yourself?"

That's right, I quoted RuPaul in a blog post on a hacking site. That is what makes me the dawg.

StankDawg

I awoke one morning to find this message in IRC at around 5 AM.

--> Peroxyde (Dylan@omghax-4CF3650B.home.cgocable.net) has joined #binrev

<Peroxyde> Huh, just as pathetic as I expected.

<Peroxyde> Kudos on ruining the community, StankDawg.

<-- Peroxyde has quit (Quit: SHAZAM)

This is the shit that I have to put up with... Is there no wonder why I want to quit?

StankDawg

I took an online personality disorder test (that I saw linked from 4chan of all places). We all know how accurate these things are...but seriously, there probably is a bit of truth to some of it. Obviously only a real psychiatrist can diagnose you truly.

Disorder | Rating

Paranoid: Low

Schizoid: Low

Schizotypal: Moderate

Antisocial: Low

Borderline: Low

Histrionic: Low

Narcissistic: Low

Avoidant: Low

Dependent: Low

Obsessive-Compulsive: Moderate

I don't know how I feel about these results. OCD..I can see that due to my eating habits and my tendency to be stubborn about how things should be done and done right (I admit that "right" can be subjective though). The schitzotypal thing is a bit misleading since it deals with paranoia. I am not paranoid that the world is out to get me (believe me, I witnessed someone like that first hand) but I to tend to believe that our government hides things from us as do big corporations. Because of those conspiracy theory beliefs, I guess that classifies me as moderate.

StankDawg

I have been slowly but surely uploading episodes of Binary Revolution Radio to our downloads module after a long drought of not having a valid archive.

I customized the section include air dates and show hosts and I have been copying over show notes (which has been an adventure since HTML does not always play well with BBCODE) and as I do this I am reminded of a lot of great times with great friends. I ended the show after 4 seasons because towards the end, it started to become a chore and a burden because expectation were there every week for people and I was trying to keep everyone happy but at the cost of my own enjoyment of the show. When I realized this, I knew that it was time to end it.

But man, while I was doing it, even the last stressful episodes, I had a blast. This was one of the funnest things that I ever did in my life. It was me along with some of my best friends just talking tech and hacking and just being ourselves and doing what we do. We were thinking, challenging boundaries, questioning authority and taking stances on what we believed in. We were learning and teaching at the same time. We were laughing, joking around, and even, on some pathetic occasions, singing. I bore my soul on that show sometimes. I look back and do not regret anything I ever said on that show and if you really want to know who StankDawg really is and what he is all about, just go back and listen to these shows.

That was me.

That *is* me.

I am not, nor have I ever been, fake and I know exactly who I am. You will not find me saying or doing one thing and then going on livejournal or a blog somewhere and pretending to be someone that I am not to people that don't even know the real me. If you listened to those episodes, you already know the real me.

StankDawg

Holiday break

I am finally getting around to posting about my holiday break and the end of my catastrophic 2009. Fittingly, 2009 started in the emergency room and it ended in the emergency room. I guess that is appropriate. Regardless of my 2009 health events both my family and I are perfectly healthy and looking forward to a good 2010.

One of the things I was most excited about was finally getting to see my new 4 month old niece for the first time. This is my sisters first child and while I may be a bit biased, she is a beautiful baby girl and you can't help but smile looking at her. Here she is wondering who is this wolf/dawg creature that is kissing her. It's the beard...chicks dig the beard. ;)

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Here we both are chilling on the couch both with our respective headgear.

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I also didn't waste any time getting her starting on her hacking career by teaching her the basics of phone phreaking.

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Both pictures were taken before the haircut so these were the last photos of a creature that might just belong on an episode of MonsterQuest. Due to the aforementioned emergency room visit, it put me behind on a lot of things including the haircut and the fund raiser (which I will wrap up this week, I promise). I *did* get the hair buzzed after I got back home and I did get it filmed to be released in a future episode of HackTV:PWNED. I also have a few photos that I took with the cameraphone that I will post in the Financiers section of the forum.

I went to visit my grandmother, whom I have spoken of before, but they put them to sleep in the nursing home very early after supper (it was only 5:30 PM) so she was already in bed when I arrived and I wasn't able to spend much time with her this trip which was disappointing (and entirely my fault for not staying an extra few days to see more of her). I regret not making more time for her.

In addition to spending time with my real family, I spent time with my hacking family as well. I got together with long time friends logosx, zer0db, and meaflux. We hung out and caught up on real life drama (thats what friends do) and talked tech and hax (thats what hackers do) and I missed hanging out with them every month at the BR561 meeting. Luckily I stay in touch with them all and pledge to stay even closer to them in 2010.

My rebirth is complete and I am ready for a fresh start on life. I will be posting some big news about my future sometime within the next month so stay tuned for a new direction not only for me personally, but also for the entire binrev family of sites.

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StankDawg

Yeah, so I guess I fail at being a normal red blooded American male. This chick that I was chatting up on one of those dating sites who lives like 5 minutes away from me pretty much offered a FWB relationship (I only recently learned that acronym myself so I provided a link to it for others who are as clueless as I am) and I said no.

I guess most people would consider that a perfect relationship. A good looking girl who wants sex with no strings attached and she is even conveniently located near where I live? What the hell is wrong with me? I wanted to. I thought about it, I will be honest. But I just am not looking for a "hook-up" at this point in my life. I am looking for "the one". I tried to convince myself that I can have both...I mean, who doesn't want to put a different game on "free play" while they wait to buy the game that they really want?

And if anyone got that last reference (you may think you did, but you probably didn't unless you are over the age of 30), then you really are a geek.

I hereby turn in my man card. :(

StankDawg

Ok, so I am not exactly boycotting it, but I am not getting all heavy into it this year. I am not falling into the commercialization anymore. I never really thought of Christmas as a commercial holiday, but somehow it became one out of entitlement. Someone buys you a gift and you are obligated to buy one back for them and it grows and grows. I don't think this is at all what this holiday is supposed to be about.

Without going into a religious topic here, since I tend to keep my personal beliefs to myself, but this holiday is to celebrate the birth of our lord and savior Jesus Christ. Now, believe that or not, thats fine. Personal decisions and all of that...but I do believe that and I do not understand how that became "buy everyone you know lots of gifts". The tradition comes from the wise men who brought gifts to the baby Jesus and we keep that tradition up this very day. That is all well and good, but the obligation needs to stop.

I do not see the point in buying my sister a gift card only to have her buy me a gift card of the same value for another store. why bother? The stores are the ones who really benefit from this token gesture in the form of a guaranteed sale. Don't get me wrong, I am not a Grinch. I love Christmas and what it truly stands for. But let's be honest, Christmas is a childrens holiday. I have no problem buying gifts for kids and keeping the holidays magical and fun. But for those of us who grew up, it is just all false idolatry to the almighty dollar. Not "idol" in a Godlike way, but in a shift of priorities. I am not doing it anymore.

Similar to the way that I don't want gifts to celebrate my birthday (and arbitrary day if there ever was one) I don't want gifts out of obligation. If you want to buy me a gift, do it because you think of me or care about me and thought it would be a nice thing that has no relevance to a date. I buy gifts for people all the time. Why should I wait to give them at Christmas or some particular day? I will give them when I think of that person and buy the gift for them. Personally, if someone gave me a small gift or a card on some strange Wednesday for no reason at all other than that they simply cared about me, that would mean far more to me than if someone bought me a brand new car on Christmas. I can buy a new car myself. You cannot buy caring and love.

So that being said, I only bought a few small practical gifts for my new baby niece. I made arrangements with my family to not do the gift exchange mockery this this. I do have a few small things for people, but not out of obligation, but because I care. They are small, cheap things that I picked up on my travels and I don't count that is going out of my way to get gifts.

No matter what your feeling are on gift-giving, please let me wish you all a happy holiday. I still love the holiday and the intent behind it, so don't misinterpret that. I will be out of town for the rest of the year visiting my family. Hopefully, I make it back alive. I am going to start 2010 strong and refocused and hopefully it treats me a whole lot better than 2009 did. ;)

StankDawg

So I was driving to meet some co-workers for lunch today and they are doing some roadwork near my house. There was this dude who was about a 30-35 years old fairly built black guy riding a bike along the side of the road. He was maybe 8 or 9 car lengths in front of me so I saw everything clearly. He veered off of the road (on his own, no traffic near him) and I am not sure if was trying to show off on purpose or not but what happened was pretty awesome.

There was a pile of dirt (in Florida, that means mostly sand) about 2 feet high right in front of him where he was turning off of the road. Now he might have been trying to show off or just have fun or he might not have seen it at all. He might have been trying to jump it or something because he was pedaling really fast. I don't know what was in his head. All I know is that he went straight into that pile of dirt and I watched his back tire come flying over his head and his face hit the dirt with such impact that his back legs flipped over his head. For a second I really thought that he could have seriously hurt himself. His back flew over the bike and for all I know he could have broken his spine. It was that fast and violent. I think it was lucky that the dirt here was so soft that saved him. If he had hit concrete or something hard, he might have really injured himself.

except the dirt mound was tiny and there was no cushion of dirt to land on. Also instead of a kid, imagine it was Mike Tyson riding the bike. I was amazed that I witnessed this in real life. IT WAS AWESOME! It is the kind of shit that you see one youtube when some idiot tries to do this intentionally and someone films it. Obviously he wasn't expecting this and neither was I so I didn't have any chance of recording it. I was so surprised that I actually witnessed something this freaking awesome that I didn't even really laugh...i just looked in my rear view mirror as I passed with my mouth hanging open.

Now here is where I am big stinky pussy.

I turn in at the next street which gave me a view directly back down the sidewalk/dirt path to where he was. I was too far to get out and help and I tried to yell and ask if he was alright but it was too far. He was getting up and seemed to be dusting the dirt off of his face and chest, but he was going pretty slow. So being the pussy that I am I turned my car around and drove back to make sure that he was ok and offer to help him. By the time I got back there, he was just climbing onto his bike and riding again. I just yelled out the window "are you ok?" and he nodded and just kept right on riding. And he was riding at full speed again I might add.

When I turned back around to continue on to lunch (at the Cracker Barrel, natch) he had turned down a side street and was clearly alright so after a few more seconds it hit me that he was alright and it was OK to laugh. My guess is that he though he was going to jump this little pile of dirt or something but he didn't think about the fact that it wasn't dirt hardened into a ramp. It was a clump of sand! Riding full speed into a soft pile of sand is not a good idea! The sand is not going to support you and launch you into the air...it is giong to move away from you and force you to come to a quick stop! It's called fundamentals of physics and IT WAS FUCKING HILARIOUS! I wish I had someone been able to film it.

Yeah yeah, i know it was one of those "you had to be there" stories...but it was funny dammit. I was lolling.

StankDawg

I am not a bad person

I will warn you up front that this is a very personal post and I am using this blog and will continue to do so for some sort of therapy of my own. I have found that typing things up helps get them off of my chest and helps me come to terms with things. I know, I know...take it to livejournal...but fuck that. This is my life and my blog. Yes, I am a hacker and all that, but I keep reminding everyone that I am also a human being. this is the blog of a hacker and a human being at the same time. If that makes it less interesting, so be it.

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So I just got back from vacation a few days ago. The first good one that I have had since the breakup and actually the first good one since we first started going out. This time I took a trip with my mother whom I have only seen once all year (she lives several hours away).

Ever since "it" happened, my house and life was left in shambles. That is what abandonment does to people. My house was a wreck. It was dirty, furniture was all in places where I didn't like it because I let her do what she wanted. My mom came up a few days before our trip and helped me clean and we rearranged my whole house. It feels like mine again now.

While on vacation, it was the first time that I had time to tell my own mother the whole story of what happened. I cannot...scratch that... will not tell that story here because no matter how cold and callous she treated me and what horrible things she said about me, I will not drop docs and will still respect her privacy. I am not going to change who I am just because someone else fell from grace. I am better than that. But I will bring one thing up publicly that I have been stressing about and talking to friends about for the past few months. I was called some bad things and felt like I was being turned into a bad person and I think that it is fair that I talk about that because this is my personal blog and I find it therapeutic to get it off of my chest.

I had already heard from friends on the subject of what/how it happened and they tell me that I did not do anything wrong, but friends sometimes tell you what they think you want to hear and while my friends are usually pretty honest, I still had questions about myself. I was explaining to mom the details that she hadn't heard before and my Mom will tell me the truth no matter what, including telling me if it was my fault. Mothers are great that way.

After I got dumped, I was called a liar, a thief, "uncompassionate" and the worst word of all for me..."evil". Now here is the thing. I didn't understand why these words were coming out. I didn't do anything. I was the one who was just left behind with nothing but a phone call (and a 400 hundred dollar international roaming bill..thats right, it cost me 400 bucks to get dumped) so how did that make me "evil"? I try to grow as a person. If someone says something to me, I listen to it. I take it to heart and I have always believed that anything that someone says to you has some bit of truth to it or they wouldn't have said it. When someone says such hurtful things like that to you, especially someone that you love, it really really really hurts and makes you question yourself. Maybe I am a bad person? Maybe I am evil? Maybe I am uncompassionate? Then I realized that I am not the one who abandoned someone without even an excuse and then stopped communicating with them completely other than to call them a thief.

My mother made me realize that it was not anything that I did wrong. I am not a bad person. I am not a thief. I am not uncompassionate and I am certainly not evil. It made me see that there was no validity to these attacks. All I did was love someone and give them everything that I had. If that wasn't enough (I knew early on in the relationship that I was not good enough for her) then so be it, but the petty name calling and childish accusations are beneath me. She also made me realize that I am not usually even friends with people who are like that. I would not even treat a dog the way that she treated me (no "StankDawg" pun intended). I was in love with someone who is capable of being so cold-hearted and suddenly I realize what a mistake I made. My friends told me not to even pursue this relationship due to the weird way that it began (I should have listened to you droops and Enigma, you were right) but I am actually a compassionate guy and thought that people deserve chances. I realize now that it was a mistake. I fell in love with someone that was great, but ended up getting dumped by someone that I don't even respect as a person. When you wait your whole life for that "good person" that you think is different and better than the rest, you realize that they are just as bad as the girls in the clubs. They all treat me like shit. I think the "good girl" is as big of a myth as unicorns. They just don't exist. women are cold-hearted and I fell for the good girl routine thinking she was different and wouldn't treat me poorly. I thought she was better than that. I was wrong.

So don't get me wrong, I am not saying that I am without fault. I make mistakes..lots of them. But in this case, I did not deserve to be treated the way that I was treated. I thank my friends and ultimately my mother for helping me to see that. My mother is a pretty strong, independent, wise woman even though she was also degraded as "just a housewife" as though that were all there was to her (and assuming that is what she has done her entire life which is not true)as though that were something to be ashamed of. Being a good mother is the greatest job that any woman could have and my mother has reason to be proud because she did a great job. Insulting me is one thing, but insulting my mother is unacceptable and something that only a certain caliber of person could do and I see that now. At least my mother is strong enough to take care of herself and raise 3 kids and not be a burden on society by being a leech on the system like many people that I know. I love my mother.

So what it comes down to is that I am happy with who I am. If she wasn't happy with me, then God bless her, but I think the truth is that she is not happy with herself. Let her find that Superman that she needs. But I am not any of the terrible things that she called me. I am happy with who I am, even with my faults. I am the guy who loaned his friends money to buy their first house. I am the guy who co-signed for his friends to adopt their first child. I am the guy who spends his own time and money to run this site for the past 10+ years. I am the guy who mentors young people. I am the guy who is willing to raise money for charity by shaving his head. I the guy who occasionally makes mistake and cusses far too much but all-in-all tries to make the world a better place.

I am StankDawg.

I am David Blake.

I am a good person.

I am happy with who I am.

StankDawg

EFF Fundraiser 2009

What is this about?

LOOK AT THOSE SEXY PICS!!!

Most of you don't know my personal life, but I have been going through a rough year. You can look back through my blawg for some of the boring details. During this time, I have not gotten a haircut. I had grown a little mohawk/fauxhawk the last time I got it cut which was back in mid-June so even when I had it cut then, it was still pretty long on the top. Now, I have a full on "wh4fro" (White Afro...for hackers). So after a bad breakup, I pretty much decided to let my hair keep growing just for the fun of it and to "bring it back". I am rocking the visor and the old 70s white basketball player look and I can pull it off...well, I keep telling myself that anyway. I am ready to move on with my life and put 2009 behind me and move on to 2010 and start anew. I decided to rock this out until the end of the year and then start the new year with a haircut as a sort of "cleansing" act for my life.

So...I figured that since I will be cutting my hair anyway...why not dramatard it up with a full buzzcutt! I decided that I can use my pathetic whiny life to the benefit of someone else. One of my philosophies in life has always been that no matter how bad you think you have it, someone else has it worse and you can always help someone else. I want to apply this by turning my self-renewal into something positive for someone else. I have always supported the EFF so I thought that I would do a fundraiser to shave my hear for "Internet freedom"! How is that for a fucking dramatard announcement?

Here are the details:

As far as the haircut goes, I will do it over the Christmas break. I will take a set of clippers and just buzz right through it all...OK, I won't personally, but someone will buzz it for me. I will not shave it with a razor, just a buzzcut. I will film it for an episode of HackTV (probably the PWNED series, that sounds about right) for proof. You don't have to care about the haircut at all to donate and/or participate. The haircut is just my way of making this fun and trying to give my grown as a person some significance. You can ignore the haircut and do it totally for the perks listed below.

All money will be collected and donated to the EFF after the Christmas break. I will post totals. None of it will go to BinRev. I will eat the cost of the items listed below, including shipping. 100% of your donation will get to the EFF.

Whats in it for you?

We will accept donations of any size! All you have to do is submit your donation to orders@binrev.com which is our standard paypal account. Just put in a description or a note that your donation is for the EFF fundraiser and I will make sure that it gets included. If you donate one of the tiered amounts below, you will receive the benefits listed.

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  • Free 1 year membership to the financiers group with all of the benefits that it currently offers. If you already are a member of the financier group, I will extend it.
  • I will announce the HackTV episode in this group first, so you will be one of the first to see me make a fool out of myself.
  • My gratitude.

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  • All of the perks from tier 1.
  • 1 BINREV T-shirt (while supplies last, but I have a bunch of these left...XL only).

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  • All of the perks from tier 1 and tier 2.
  • Copies of < BR > magazine (while supplies last...I have very limited supplies of these so donate early!) I will personalize them for you if you want, just tell me in the notes of your donation.
  • Every little laptop sticker that I have laying around(from our friends at Memestreams, no starch press, and all kinds of other things), including a small number of < BR > stickers.

FAQTHBAY (Frequently asked questions that have not been asked yet):

Q: How do I know that this will make it to the EFF?

A: I will provide totals and counts of all donations at the end.

Q: Can I donate anonymously?

A: Of COURSE! I will not drop docs. You can also donate directly to the EFF if you prefer.

Q: Why should I care if you cut your hair? What's the big deal?

A: LOOK AT THAT RIGHTEOUS FRO!!! Should I deprive the world of that gift? :cool:

Q: How long will it take to get my stuff?

A: Well, be patient with me. I will try to get everything out by the end of January 2010. I will get the accounts created as quickly as I can and hopefully as soon as I see the donation. Keep in mind that I will be out of town on vacation and then again on the Christmas holidays.

Q: Don't I remember you complaining about "beg-a-thons" back on BinRev Radio?

A: Yes. Actually, I just hate the beg-a-thon over and over again seemingly all the time. This is the first such event that I have conducted EVER so I don't feel like a total hypocrite...just a partial one.

Q: Can I be your "baby mama"?

A: I am single again. ;)

WHAT I NEED FROM YOU GUYS and GALS:

Publicity! I need you guys to get the word out. Even if people don't know or care about StankDawg or binrev, just get them to support the cause of the EFF! Emphasize that they will get perks of extra access to the forums, free blogs at binrev, and generally tell them what a great community we have here! Blog about it (you are using your free blogs here at binrev, right?) everywhere! Post in other forums. Do anything else that you think will get the word out and help[ us raise money for the EFF! I am sincere and I want this to be one of the biggest things that we have ever done. We have done smaller efforts in the past for the EFF, but in case this is my full retirement swan song (and I am not saying that it is or is not) I would like to leave something behind and feel that I helped someone in the process.

Participate! Hell, if anyone else wants to shave their head with me, upload some pics before/after and we can do it as a group! It will be fun! If you want to donate something for one of the tiers, let me know!

Support! Sincerely, this is all for the EFF. Put all of my sillyness and drama aside. I am having fun, but I am seriously trying to do something good here. I know times are tough, but please donate whatever you can. It will all go to the EFF and I will announce the totals and make sure it is all on the up-and-up. If you donate the amounts shown above, you will even get something to show for your donation from us. So you are getting something back for your donation. I will eat the cost of the shirts and magazines and shipping and all of that. 100% of your money will go to the EFF.

Please help us support this great cause.

StankDawg

I got my library card!

Well, this post makes it official. I always hated blogs because people post the stupidest most inane shit that no one could care about and here I am posting about getting my library card.

I have hit a new low. :(

But fuck that libraries fucking ROCK! I have had a library card almost everywhere that I ever lived! For some reason, since I moved to Orlando, I just didn't get around to getting one. I thought about it and realized that these days, whenever I need a book, I just buy it. Fuck that...I already pay taxes and those taxes fund the library so why wouldn't I take advantage of it?

I always loved the library, even as a kid, but it was when I graduated high school and started college that I really started to live in the library. I mean that almost literally. When I was just out of high school and starting college, I spent a lot of time in the library on campus. It was awesome because they pretty much knew that it was just for students on campus and that students were famous for falling asleep in the library so there were several comfortable couches and chairs all over. I found a nice quiet corner in a remote part of the top floor and took a nice stack of books and just went up there to a nice little couch and read until I fell asleep. It was a great way to kill time between classes and catch a few winks. I had my handy-dandy datalink watch (model 150)to wake me up in time for class, so I was straight. I could have lived there (cafeteria was nearby).

But that library was fairly small and mostly contained textbooks. I had read most of the computer related ones that I was interested in and ran out of things to read. Luckily, the public library was only 4 or 5 blocks away. I would walk down to the local library, which was HUGE in comparison, and they had magazines and public computers to use, and just tons of stuff to stay interested. I would go to classes all day and then go to the library until well after dark.

Eventually, I got used to being a regular at that library and started exploring other parts of downtown Louisville KY. I found that if you wear a Doctors lab coat (which I conveniently had ;) ) then you were allowed to freely roam throughout many of the numerous hospitals that were in downtown Louisville. Now, I didn't do anything crazy or dangerous. I just wanted to do some exploring. Cafeterias in hospitals have the best food ever! then, I stumbled upon a University of Louisville medical Library inside of their practicing hospital downtown. Man, there was all kinds of crazy shit in there! Lot so of medical journals and a huge number of medical reference books. This was not really my cup of tea, but it was pretty awesome to know that it existed for the medical students and I did, on occasion, look up a few things that I was curious about. I became an expert on female genitalia, if I do say so myself. ;)

Unfortunately, that is when the real world set in for me. I was maybe 19 or 20 or so and my family was not rich. It came to a point where I had to get a couple of extra jobs to be able to pay for my college tuition and books. This pretty much took all of my free time (and most of my sleeping time). I began working 5 jobs and taking a double load of classes and my love affair with the library came to an abrupt end. Looking back, maybe I should have apologized to the library for abandoning it, but I digress.

How was that for too much information? So yeah, this library is nowhere near as exciting, but I am hopeful that it will re-spark my interest in reading again. I haven't read any fiction or read for any entertainment purposes for along time. I am hoping to find more time to do this instead of just reading technical manuals. So yeah, this was a blog post about me getting my library card...but hopefully I put a little "Stank" on the story so that it is not as lame as it sounds. ;)

If I ever post about what I have for breakfast...kill me. :blink:

StankDawg

I will warn you up front that this is a very personal post and I am using this blog and will continue to do so for some sort of therapy of my own. I have found that typing things up helps get them off of my chest and helps me come to terms with things. I know, I know...take it to livejournal...but fuck that. This is my life and my blog. Yes, I am a hacker and all that, but I keep reminding everyone that I am also a human being. this is the blog of a hacker and a human being at the same time. If that makes it less interesting, so be it.

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If my year had gone the way that I planned it, I would have been proposing to someone today...Today would have been the first day of the rest of my life. The first day of my life that I was complete. As it turns out, that will not be happening.

People change their minds I guess. Things happen, people get scared, hell I don't even know what happened to be honest because I wasn't given an explanation. I was just dumped with no explanation at all. And for the past few months since that happened, I keep trying to find something that I did wrong to cause it. I know this sounds strange, but I almost wish that I *had* actually done something wrong or bad. I wish that I *had* cheated on her or used her or something like that just so that I at least have closure. At least then, I would have a reason to look at myself and feel bad and learn and grow from it and try to avoid making that mistake again. What I finally came realize was that I *didn't* do anything wrong. I *didn't* deserve this. This was NOT my fault.

Now wait a minute, don't be misled...I am no saint. I am not saying that I never did anything wrong. We had some arguments on occasion and while that is normal and healthy in some cases, sometimes it is not. There were occasion misunderstandings, but those happened both ways. This is also normal in my mind. If you love and trust your partner, then you work things like that out. But my point here is to say that I am sure that I made some mistakes and did or said some things that I regret (and apologized for) but so did she so I think we were even on that front.

But in the end, I was still planning on spending the rest of my life with this woman. We had discussed kids, including adopting one. We had even picked out names! We had discussed moving to a new house sometime in the future and I thought that she was the soulmate that I had waited my whole life for. She looked into my eyes 4 days before she left and told me "you are a good man". Apparently, that was until 4 days later when she dumped me over the phone and never came back. I deserve better than that. I deserve an explanation. I deserve a chance to work through whatever problems she thinks existed. I deserve a face to face explanation.

I deserve better.

So here I sit, in a hotel room in New York City, on 11/11. The day that I was going to propose. The day when my new life was going to begin. I have an engagement ring and no one to give it to. I am pretty pathetic.

StankDawg

I will warn you up front that this is a very personal post and I am using this blog and will continue to do so for some sort of therapy of my own. I have found that typing things up helps get them off of my chest and helps me come to terms with things. I know, I know...take it to livejournal...but fuck that. This is my life and my blog. Yes, I am a hacker and all that, but I keep reminding everyone that I am also a human being. this is the blog of a hacker and a human being at the same time. If that makes it less interesting, so be it.

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I have been dealing with some personal issues with people very close to me (friends and family) that have really opened my eyes to the reality that is mental illness. I always thought that most mental illness was misdiagnoses of common things that people go through. I still believe this to be true in cases of ADD/ADHD, Depression and many others. Look, we all have bad days, but that doesn't mean you are clinically depressed and have a mental problem. A lot of kids are hyper, this doesn't mean that they need to be medicated. These are temporary conditions and I think they are far too often used as excuses to cover up problem behavior. At the same time, I also realize that when the mental illness is real, it is very much as devastating as any physical illness can be.

It is also especially scary depending on the type of mental illness. Some are "functional" where the person can still function in society. This may require drugs or regular therapy or other way of coping with the illness. It may also simply mean that the case is so mild or harmless in nature that the person may simply be viewed as "quirky" or "weird" to others. Hell, I fall into that category. But sometimes they are much more serious and it is a very sad thing to see up close.

A very close friend of mind...or former friend, as it were...had a problem that I have never really seen up close before. It is called Paranoia and you might think that you know what that is. Calling someone Paranoid is very common, especially to us conspiracy theorists. We hear that a lot. A lot of my co-workers think that I am overly paranoid. This is just using the an word when what they really should be saying is "cautious" or "concerned". True Paranoia is a recognized mental illness. It is also commonly associated with other things, specifically schizophrenia. Both basically describe a person who thinks that everyone is out to get them, but in a very sincere way. In some very extreme cases, the person will hear voices and believe that they are on a mission from a higher power telling them what to do and who not to trust. These extreme cases mean that the person is not in control of their own mind. What I witnessed was not this bad, but it did involve someone who thought that no one was on their side. They feel alone in the world and think that the system is against them. This could be from their family (parents), the government, their friends, their employer, or all of the above. It is very sad because although I can see it very well, they cannot. This is the cruel juxtaposition of the disorder. You want to reach out and hold them and tell them that it is OK and that you are there to help them and you are on their side, but you cannot force them to believe you. If they think that you are out to get them, how do you help them? I offered to go to therapy with this person and they immediately lashed out and said that *I* was the one who needed therapy and we were never able to approach the topic again without me being accused of being out to get them and make them into a bad person. The truth is that I want to help, but I learned that you cannot help some who doesn't want, or think that they need, help. It is a sad situation and it causes families, friendships, and relationships to fall apart and there is nothing that you can do about it except hope that the person come to the realization on their own that they have a problem. It also hurts the ones that care about them more than they probably realize.

My grandmother has Alzheimer's. Now this is a physical disease but it has a mental manifestation in the form of lost memory and communication skills. I have had to watch my grandmother deteriorate slowly over the course of the past 5 years to the point where she cannot even say my name anymore. She recognizes me...sometimes...actually, very rarely. Usually, she is oblivious to everythign including the passing days. She has some "good days" which you may hear mentioned when speaking of Alzheimer's patients. Most of the time, however, are bad days (or normal days for her) where she doesn't acknowledge the passing of time, she doesn't know how old she is, or where she is. Sometimes I think that the bad days, ironically, are the good days in her life anyway because she doesn't really comprehend what is going on around her. On her "good" days I visit her and she has some long term memory, but very broken short term memory. On one good day, she understood that she was in the hospital and knew that she was sick, but not what she was sick with. She had fallen and hurt her arm when she first went in the hospital and she thinks that she is still in the hospital for that. She doesn't realize that it happened 5 years ago. One of the hardest things in the world that I have ever had to do was to look into my Grandmother's face and lie to her when she looked at me and asked me when she would be going home. I lied and told her through my tears "soon Nannie...soon". It makes me cry right now as I write this, but hey...I can handle it. I am "strong like Bull".

And don't even get me started on my own Mental issues...I have plenty. I think that I am pretty functional though. I am usually just "weird" to most people because I think and act differently than everyone else. I chalk a lot of that up to being a hacker, but some of it is probably deeper than that. I know this though, and I do a lot of self-analysis to try and recognize it so that I can overcome it. I think that this is true for most people. What is "normal" anyway? I may have my moments, but all-in-all, I am pretty normal to most people. It just takes a special kind of person to "get me" completely. I thought I had actually found one person who was special enough to "get me" but that didn't work out and that is a whole other story for another post. I think this was more than enough corniness for one post.

StankDawg

I just got back in town from a business trip to NYC and it was a stressful trip as far as work goes, but a blast from a personal standpoint.

I went up a couple of days early (I went up a day early on the last trip also) and crashed with ntheory and hung out with him and decoder and some other friends in the area. Actually, by total coincidence, it turns out that I was on the same plane with my buddy Greg Conti two weeks ago and didn't even know it! When we arrived at LGA airport and I stood up after we landed and looked around, I see Greg in the back of the plane! I was like WTF? So he gave me a ride from the airport where he had parked his car and we caught up on the ride since I had not seen him since Defcon in July.

ntheory and I talked a lot of tech and went to see an open Fios box that he knew about and it is a good thing that we did. Before we could go back again, it was closed and locked up. We took a few pictures, but it was late at night and I am not sure what kind of quality they were. When I rip them from the camera, I will upload them to the gallery. We looked at a lot of code and bitched a lot about technology. We also discussed some options to being back Phreak Phactor and even got the site back up and running. I also found out that he loves the TV show called "Hell's Kitchen" although he is a bit embarrassed to talk about it.

Anyway, back to this particular trip, after hanging out and hax0ring the planet with ntheory, I went down to Brooklyn Saturday night to hang out with Front. Actually, we met up at a party that he told me about and hung out until about 1 or 2 AM. While there, he invited back down Sunday to drop some beats for him that he might use on the upcoming album. Now I have no delusions about being a famous beat boxer, it is just a fun thing that I have done since I was young, but I figured what the hell and did it just for the fun of it. If he actually got anything useful recorded, then great. It actually was a strange experience for me since I have never actually beat boxed into a microphone before and heard myself ... well, actually I think I might have done that with my mac one time to try out the camera and posted it in the financiers forum, but that wasn't the same. I actually learned a lot about audio engineering...not much of it stuck in my head, but I now understand and appreciate the equipment and audio quality more than I ever thought about before. When you beatbox, you are basically spitting directly into the microphone and we had to really do some adjusting to get the audio levels right, but he knew exactly what he was doing and got it to sound just right. The other weird thing was that I have never used an actually real microphone before. I am more of an old skool beat-box-into-your-hands kind of guy. I like that natural sound. I tried to use a few of my "tricks" as it were and I am not sure if they sounded good recorded or not. I still prefer just freestyling. Anyway, I heard a few of the early beats for the new album that he is just starting on and I can't drop any docs on anything, but they were pretty awesome. The album title is near and dear to my heart as well. Keep watching his site for any official news and join the VSP while you are there. You will get announcements early and access to extra songs and live tracks.

The flight itself was pretty interesting as well because I was on one of the planes that has wifi available. It costs 9.95 per flight to use it or they had other options for all day or all month use I think. I forget, but I started putting together a short article about it. Of course I did not pay. Pssshh... But I did get connected and had a lot of fun trying to chat in IRC from tens of thousands of feet in the air over the East coast. I even took a few pictures and uploaded them. I will try to post them later as well.

Look for the Dawg coming soon to a city near you!

StankDawg

I took a poll on one of those online dating sites and it gave me this personality description as a result on how to get along with me:

6 - the Questioner

you chose CY - your Enneagram type is SIX (aka "The Loyalist").

"I am affectionate and skeptical"

Questioners are responsible, trustworthy, and value loyalty to family, friends, groups, and causes. Their personalities range broadly from reserved and timid to outspoken and confrontative.

How to Get Along with Me

• Be direct and clear.

• Listen to me carefully.

• Don't judge me for my anxiety.

• Work things through with me.

• Reassure me that everything is OK between us.

• Laugh and make jokes with me.

• Gently push me toward new experiences.

• Try not to overreact to my overreacting.

What I Like About Being a SIX

• being committed and faithful to family and friends

• being responsible and hardworking

• being compassionate toward others

• having intellect and wit

• being a nonconformist

• confronting danger bravely

• being direct and assertive

What's Hard About Being a SIX

• the constant push and pull involved in trying to make up my mind

• procrastinating because of fear of failure; having little confidence in myself

• fearing being abandoned or taken advantage of

• exhausting myself by worrying and scanning for danger

• wishing I had a rule book at work so I could do everything right

• being too critical of myself when I haven't lived up to my expectations

SIXes as Children Often

• are friendly, likable, and dependable, and/or sarcastic, bossy, and stubborn

• are anxious and hypervigilant; anticipate danger

• form a team of "us against them" with a best friend or parent

• look to groups or authorities to protect them and/or question authority and rebel

• are neglected or abused, come from unpredictable or alcoholic families, and/or take on the fearfulness of an overly anxious parent

SIXes as Parents

• are often loving, nurturing, and have a strong sense of duty

• are sometimes reluctant to give their children independence

• worry more than most that their children will get hurt

• sometimes have trouble saying no and setting boundaries

I find it to be pretty accurate. I do overreact sometimes, but not as badly as others that I know. I do laugh things off a lot and MOST things I do not take too seriously. If you are clear about what is serious and what is joking with me, which I try to do with others, then we are usually on the same page. I am loyal, but I expect people to be loyal to me.

But it also explains why some people don't get along with me. It reaffirms that I should not stress out so much over these people. It is not that it is anyones fault, it is just that we weren't meant to be together or get along. We aren't compatible, that's all. Work with me and communicate and we will get along just fine. Judge me and give up on me and abandon me and we are not meant to get along.

StankDawg

I bought one of those expensive Dyson vacuum cleaners a few years ago and it worked pretty good...at first. Like every other vacuum, it started to lose power and go bad over time. I took a chance and spent like 400 bucks on it thinking it would last longer and work better than those cheap ones. After about 2 years, it got to the point where it was almost worthless. I cleaned the big middle canister and scrubbed it down frequently, but that didn't so much. I also took the bottom rollers apart and scrubbed them as well. Still, nothing. Today's task was to take it apart completely, which we hackers love to do, and see if I could fix it...make it stronger...build the 6 million dollar vacuum!!!! OK, maybe I just wanted fix my $400 dollar vacuum but that didn't sound dramatic enough to post.

I took it out to the driveway to work on it outside so I didn't make a mess. I took a couple of tools (brute force tools like pliers and a flathead screwdriver to pry stuff apart) and began methodically taking this thing apart. I went through the same process that I had been through before, cleaning and scrubbing each part as I removed it. I finally had the thing in pieces and thought that it wasn't really that dirty and there was nothing that I saw that should have stopped it from working better. There were no noticeable blockages in any of the hoses/tubes. Nothing was stuck or clogged anywhere. The tornado chamber thing (or whatever the patented term is) where all of the dirt is caught was now as clean as a whistle and I could not seem to get it apart any further to see if there was anything more on the inside to clean. So after sitting there thinking that I would never buy one of these things again I went ahead and started putting it back together to go give it one last try when I noticed a small sticker on the bottom of the main unit itself. The sticker said to clean the filter once every 6 months. I thought, yeah, well I clean it and it doesn't help. I started to put the central tornado unit thing back onto the base when I realized...wait a minute, these things don't have normal filters like other vacuum cleaners...do they?

I always thought that the center piece, which I cleaned many times, was the filter. I took this off and looked again at the base and noticed that the center of the frame was round where the plastic tornado thing clicks in and it looked like it might have something beneath it. I looked closer and could see another sticker that showed that the center piece, which looks continuous and like it should not come apart, actually flips up to get access to another section. Do you want to guess what was in the section?

A FILTER!

I felt like a moron. I cannot believe that I never saw this before. I pried it open, careful not to break it, and sure enough, there is a small round filter maybe 8 inches in diameter and about an inch or two thick. It was COVERED in about an inch of pure crud. Dried crud, but crud none-the-less. It was clear that this was the reason that the thing had lost suction. I pulled it out, beat the big dirt off of it outside in the driveway and then brought it inside to clean in the sink. It turns out that this filter, like everything else on the Dyson, is strong and well designed. It is rubber on the sides and designed to be washed under the sink and squeezed to drain the water. After a minute or two of washing and letting it dry for another 30 minutes, I finally put the machine back together and sure and heck this thing was as good as new.

Now I consider myself to be a fairly smart guy, and I didn't notice this section until a final breakdown of the entire machine. I wonder how many other people out there have also run into this problem and returned units, or thrown them away and/or written bad reviews about them all because they couldn't find the filter either? I never even knew that a filter existed! I thought that was what made Dyson different but they are just like every other vacuum. They all need filters somewhere, and even when I bought it I knew that something was strange about a vacuum that didn't have a filter and now, 3 years later, I find that I was right. So I don't like the way that they make it sound like there is no filter involved, but even with that being said, it is still an awesome vacuum with good design and engineering.

So why am I writing about it here in a hacker blog? Because as hackers, we like to take stuff part, so it was actually a fun process. Sometimes we end up being unable to put them back together, but this one worked out for the best. Hackers are pretty good handymen (and women) and I don't know why so many people don't realize that. There is this old stereotype that we all sit on computers all day and are weak feeble invalids that don't go out in sunlight, but the truth is that we make great mechanics because we hack our cars. We make great handymen and engineers because we take stuff apart, improve it, and fix it. We make great survivalists because we like to be prepared for anything. Hackers are so misunderstood in what makes us tick. We just like to be challenged...and that applies to everything, not just technology.

So go out and take something apart! Especially after it is broken or dying. Try to fix it or even improve it and put it back together. If it was broken, you don't lose anything anyway. You might surprise yourself with what you can accomplish.

StankDawg

I learned something a long time ago on this site and in this community. I learned not to mention projects and content early because sometimes, it never materializes. So it is very hard for me to bite my tongue and hold in the excitement that I have for the new features that we have in store for BinRev. I know that makes this posts and any vague references like it a huge cocktease, but trust me when I say that the site will be revitalized. You can already see many of the changes with our new blogs section becoming more and more active by the day. Our gallery is now more tightly integrated with the site which makes the need for off-site image storage unnecessary. We have a new Links Database and the calendar app is easier than ever to use. We also purchased the downloads module which is on the to-do list to populate as soon as possible, so that will make a nice place to store files, source code, and any content that might be of interest to our users.

And notice that I HAVE NOT EVEN MENTIONED THE FORUMS! Everything that I just mentioned above are all NEW features to the site! The forums, besides being upgraded in basic functionality and features also have a lot of new add-ons that make it more fun and interactive with our users. It has really been rebuilt to emphasize the community aspect of our site, which we have always prided ourselves on. You do not just have accounts, you have profiles. You can customize your profile, update your status, add friends, and have a social networking environment just for hackers.

Also enhancing the forums, are great new features and modifications like the reputation system and integrated sidebar apps to make site navigation easier and bring more content together. the "Show new posts" feature that many people used has now been replaced with a "Show new Content" feature that works the same but lets you know about ALL new content including posts, blog posts, links, uploads, and so much more!

And I may be the only statistics junkie that likes these mods, but I have enhanced the forums to include statistics almost EVERYWHERE! Your profile page even has a statistics TAB that breaks down so much information about your posting habits and tendencies. The general forum statistics are awesome, the gallery statistics are much more in-depth, and if you look, you will also find blog and download statistics integrated as well.

All of that and I did not break my rule about discussing new things too early! We have so much more to come! We have rolled out SO MUCH STUFF already, and a lot of it came quickly when we rebuilt the site so that you may not have noticed it all. Look around at all of the great things on the site and all I can say is wait until you see what comes next!

StankDawg

I wrote an article a couple of weeks ago and I recently posted it to the private financiers forum. I submitted it to 2600, so hopefully they will print it. I have not submitted anything to them in quite some time due to a lot of drama in my life. It feels good to be writing again. Even if they do not print it, I will eventually put it up over on DocDroppers.org to share with everyone. For now, it is one of those perks that you get for your $25.00 donation to join the Financiers group.

StankDawg

As I post this, most of you see the message at the top about how I am cleaning up posts from the linkz section.

The original idea for the linkz section was to handle the large number of posts from members, many of them one time posters to spam their sites, that were simple links to their sites. We also wanted to have a place for people to post links to interesting ebay auctions or craigslist finds. It did a good job and kept the rest pf the forums pretty clean from that type of content in the early years. Now that we have grown larger, the amount of content is sufficient enough to send those type of posts down the post list pretty fast, thus rendering them less annoying.

As we grew, there was actually a minor phenomenon that happened where some people were confused as to what the linkz section was for and where they should post some content. People started posting links to news articles that were hacking or phreaking related in the linkz section thinking that was the correct place for ALL links. Now this was a good thing that people were trying to follow the rules and post in appropriate areas, so obviously we never had any problems with that, but truth be told, a lot of those posts probably should have gone directly into the General Hacking section or the Old Skool Phreaking section instead. As I go through it, I also find some that I am moving into other parts of the forums like the graphics section and a lot of off-topic stuff. Since each thread has to be judged individually, I have to go through them one by one and decide what to do with them.

That forum has around 2800 posts in it before I started. Now that we have an actual links module, I do not see the need anymore for having a linkz forum. But what do we do with all of that content? There are a lot of good links that are still valid and useful and a lot of great discussion on many of them. While there is a "mass move" function that I can use to just dump EVERY post into another forum of my choice, I do not want to use that since the topics are diverse and no single forum is a good place for all of them. Basically, I have to go through them one by one and decide 2 things.

  • Whether the link is worth adding to our new links database.
  • Where to move the thread itself.

How do I decide what to save, you might wonder? Well, admittedly, it is just me using my best judgment, so please don't be offended if I skip a link that you think should have been in our new database. For the most part, I read each thread and decide whether the link is still active and valuable to keep on file. If so, I find the proper section of our links database to put it in and save it. Since the links database is just beginning, I am having to add sections as I see a need, so new categories are popping up all the time. Some I skip intentionally, some I just miss on accident. Many of the links are simply to news stories of some kind and there is not really a need to keep them in a database. They may still have valuable discussion and content however.

This leads to step 2. I then decide what the thread is about and find another place in the forums to move it. If it is about hacking, I move it to GH. If it is about Phreaking, I move it to OSP. We have many forums that cover a lot of different topics and so far, I have found an appropriate place fore everything. If anything is questionable, I move it to off-topic. While I work through this, which may take months, you will see content disappearing from that forum and popping up elsewhere on the site. Since it is older, it will get shuffled in chronologically and you will not see them appearing at the top of any forums, don't worry about that.

If you want to help out, what you can do is just add links to our links database. I am going through the linkz section, but if you have any links that you think deserve to stay in out database because they are good, ongoing, useful or fun sites, by all means submit them. To prevent SPAM, all links must be approved by moderators. Try to post them in the appropriate category, but a moderators may decide to move it if they think it is better served elsewhere. Don't worry, the links database is searchable.

This is just one of many news apps that we are now offering on binrev.com so keep checking back. You can subscribe to my blog to get announcements (and other assorted drama) on all things binrev and StankDawg in nature.

StankDawg

So I have been watching this new pseudo-reality show on Discovery channel called "The Colony". I say pseudo-reality, because it is really more of a simulation of what reality might be like in a post disaster environment. They also chose people who clearly would have the skills necessary to survive. These are no everyday dramatards that you find on "the real world" or other reality shows (although there is some drama on occasion). They chose people with specific skillsets that they knew would actually be able to do the interesting things that would be necessary to survive. They chose 1 doctor and a nurse as part of the casts, surrounded them with several mechanics and engineers and some handymen and carpenters. This gives them the skills and knowledge necessary to do things that are needed to survive.

Here is an example: The are dropped off in an abandoned area outside of Los Angeles, CA where there are no other people with whom to interact (other than an occasion plant by the show to test them somehow). But the area that they were guided to was a giant warehouse that just coincidentally happened to have a lot of handy items in it like some canned food to get started, some gasoline and other types of fuel, and a large array of car batteries which is a great start for generating and storing power. I think this is pretty freaking awesome! As a person interested in survival anyway, I find this show intriguing because it shows not the hardcore "eat anything that moves" survival aspect of life, but a more realistic "use what you have laying around" type of survival. This plays very well to my hacker core.

One of my favorite characters is John who is a computer engineer. So the first thing to point out is that there is no power, no Internet, no computer anywhere around in this situation. But let me tell you, this guy is a freaking GENIUS! He is a geek MacGyver! He may be a computer scientist by title, but this guy knows more science than most science teachers that I have had. Not to mention the fact that he is a very gentle and caring human being. He is a bit of an old hippie, but that may be my end form in life. When it is all said and done and I am in my twilight years (if I am not already in them) that might be the same way that people describe me. This guy is one of the best parts of the show.

Another person that I like is Mike who is portrayed as the general handyman of the group with bonus knowledge of solar energy (how convenient that there were solar panels on a nearby building) which is apparently what he does for a living. He is a great example of someone who just works hard to get things done. He knows what he can do and just does it and if he doesn't know it, he figures it out. He proves that you don't need a PhD to be smart and accomplish a lot of things. There is another character on the show who is supposedly a rocket scientist (Aerospace engineer to be exact) named Morgan who is worthless. She has done nothing the entire show except get an old record player working to play music. She tried to help on other project but showed her ineffectiveness compared to o0thers like Vlad and John. Mike can be a bit of a dick sometimes, but I would gladly have him on my team anytime.

I highly recommend that you check this show out. I really think that it is must see for hackers of all kinds as well as anyone with an interest in survival. I definitely learned a lot of things so far on the show that I had never heard of before. I think you will as well.

StankDawg

OK, so I am stepping away from the day-to-day operation of binrev and all of the associated sites. BAwwww.... whatever. Anyway, I am going into the semi-retirement life that is blogging and producing content again. You will see me less involved in forum maintenance and content and becoming more of a standard user here. I will be moving the content from my old site over to this one and try to blog regularly. Why? Because FUCK YOU I'M AN ALLIGATOR!

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That is my new attitude. You guys all hate me, and hate how I run things, so fine...fuck you, I'm the dawg. I don't need your shit. I am living my life no and doing what I want. Right now, I have more important personal drama and bullshit in my head to deal with skiddies and asshats. I am going to focus more on my friends and family and get all of the recent negativity out of my life. That shit brings you down. I will use this blgo top post shit that I find kool and probably to whine and bitch about my life. I don't do livejournal and myspace and shit like that, so you fuckers will have to put up with it or don't read it. This is my personal place to vent and get shit off of my chest. I have been going through a lot of personal issues lately and I am finding it therapeutic to talk and write about it. It helps to get it off of my chest.

If you don't like it...

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I will explain more about your new team and structure soon.

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StankDawg

Activity Increase

As August closes and we move into September (my Birth month), I thought it was worth pointing out some really great threads that have been brought up in our forums.

There is some interesting discussion on "the New York phantom exchanges" about some missing blocks of number from 212-394 and 212-955. Blue Box building is still around thanks to projectMF from our friend Phiber Optik. This and lots more is in the Old skool Phreaking forum.

From the hacking side of things, I recently posted a new entry on the official DDP blawg about interesting things caught on MythBusters. There is also lots of great hacking discussion in the forums in general. All of these forums are OPEN and DO NOT REQUIRE REGISTRATION! But if you do choose to register for the forums, you also get access to our registered members section with talk that is more focused on specific topics like hardware hacking, Retail Hacking, and our always excellent programming section.

We also appreciate our artistic side here at binrev so registered member can participate in our photoshop contests or our desktop of the month threads in the graphics section. Right now, I am anxiously awaiting more submissions to the Hacker Magic Cards contest. The templates are provided, all you have to do is register to access these sections (which is free). We also have an off-topic general chat section where zaniness abounds. Everything from comics, to humor, to poetry to pr0n is shared in this section.

If you are really into the Binary Revolution, you should consider donating 25 bucks to join our donors program. This will give you the ability to host your own blog here at binrev.com (or get a nice link to your own blog from a high google-ranked site) along with extra gallery storage space and access to an awesome forum with exclusive content. Right now there are active threads on accounts that were harvested from disposable email accounts and shared with the group as well as much more.

We have been picking up some steam after a long summer with lots of distractions and reorganization here at binrev. I am glad to see that we are on the right track and I look forward to seeing the news threads in the forums every day. I hope you feel the same!

StankDawg

OK, so we are about 3 weeks out and now that the schedule has come out, I have a better grasp on what is a good time to meetup. It looks like I am wide open Friday night, so perhaps a meetup at around 10 PM Friday the 18th would be good.

I will be in and out of the conference the whole weekend, but we need to pick one time so that I can plan to be there to meet everyone. Otherwise, my availability will be pretty random between sleeping, talks, volunteering on cameras, and other things :heart: .

Please post a confirmation here. We will meet in the vendor area at 10 PM and we can find a place to hang out and talk and then make our traditional trek to white castle (unless anyone else has better ideas). As always, I will have some presentations with me if anyone wants to see them. If anyone has any show and tell or swag that they want to bring, please do so.

<img src='http://www.binrev.com/forums/public/style_emoticons/<#EMO_DIR#>/borgsmile.gif' class='bbc_emoticon' alt=':borg:' /> WEAR YOUR BINREV TSHIRTS FRIDAY IF YOU HAVE THEM! <img src='http://www.binrev.com/forums/public/style_emoticons/<#EMO_DIR#>/borgsmile.gif' class='bbc_emoticon' alt=':borg:' /> I will try to bring a few (XL only) but do not count on it.

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StankDawg

Well, with so many people all getting butthurt over stupid (and irrelevant) IRC activity, combined with the comments of how the forums have "gone downhill" we have taken some steps to improve the situation.

I still firmly believe that it is YOU, the binrev community, who need to police yourselves better and stand up when people are bringing down YOUR forums. However, since no one seems to want to do that, you have left it to me to fix...again. So I am going to fix it the only way that I know how. I am about to implement MARTIAL LAW! Many of you will not like it. That is too bad since you had the opportunity to fix the problems yourselves before it got to this point, so now you must deal with my way of handling things.

The first step was actually done last weekend. We added 3 new moderators to our moderating team. I would like to publicly announce and welcome mirrorshades, Alk3, and deepgeek to the moderating team. They have all been trained on the forum rules and our policies and will all make excellent additions to our existing moderating team. This is only the beginning as we are considering a few more people who may also be joining as well. This is not something that we take lightly. This is a serious job and it takes a lot to earn your spot on this team. I have nothing but the utmost respect for all of them and I appreciate the drama that they have to put up with on a daily basis even if many of our member do not. If you earn your way onto this team, then you are head and shoulders worthy of my respect.

With a strong moderating team in place, we will now begin to clean up the forums. There will be NO MORE slaps on the wrist for offenses. We are now under a no-tolerance policy. This includes not only the letter of the laws, but also the general civility level of the forums. There will be NO MORE FLAMING ANYWHERE IN THE FORUMS! Let me say it again to make it crystal clear. THERE WILL BE NO MORE FLAMING IN THE FORUMS! and there are NO EXCEPTIONS to this rule. You will get warned or banned for violating this mandate.

This MARTIAL LAW status will endure until the forums are cleaned up. It may take a month, it may take longer,. If you want it to go back to normal, I suggest that you PARTICIPATE by policing each other. How? Send PM to people who post something that is bad, illegible, off-topic, or just plain wrong. REPORT posts to the moderating team so that we can address them faster. Defend people who get flamed instead of letting bystander apathy take over your life and this community. Do not stand by and watch people ruin the forums. CALL THEM OUT!

Please everyone: Help us make these forums a better place by participating. If you stop trying, then we will stop trying and we will shut the whole thing down. I really do not need this headache, stress, and aggravation. It is your site, not mine. If it has to go down, then it is on you, not me. Please do not let that happen.

StankDawg

To quote someone from the off-topic section, "The Revolution will be Monetized!"

WHAT IT IS:

Many of our long-time users here know that we have been through a long road of increasing server costs that have come out of my pocket personally. I have not bothered anyone about money because I want to share as much information for free as we could to help our community grow. I always tried to find alternative ways to pay for our family of sites. Increased server costs and software licenses have made that difficult financially, but I think I have found a solution that if fair to everyone *and* will hopefully help ease my personal financial burden.

I never set up a donations link because I wanted to give people something back in appreciation for their support and I think that I have found a way to do that. What I have done is create a new member group called "Agents of the Revolution" that is a subscription based group. What this means is that you can only join this group by donating $25.00 towards binrev and all of our services each year as part of this subscription. It is important to immediately point out after that statement that THIS IS TOTALLY OPTIONAL! It will not impact any current members in any way whatsoever! All of the forums that we have currently are not going to change and are still under the same settings that they always have been. This new group is strictly on a voluntary basis.

So why would you want to join this group? Besides just the show of support, we tried to give you a lot of extra bonuses and capacity on the server. They are as follows..

WHAT YOU GET:

  • More PM space (500!)
  • Unlimited gallery space!
  • Free blog space right here on binrev.com
  • Access to 1 special private agents-only forum
  • Advance previews of content (like articles, radio shows, videos, etc...)
  • Exclusive and Advanced offers before public availability (discounts with affiliate sites, pre-purchase of binrev merchandise, etc...)
  • More forum features to numerous to mention (no flood control on searches, ability to view offline board, change your forum name, etc...)
  • Our appreciation for your support!

IMPORTANT NOTES and FAQ:

  • Forum rules still apply! You MUST FOLLOW THE FORUMS RULES or you can still be warned and/or banned and your money WILL NOT be refunded!
  • You can choose not to renew at any time if you are no longer interested.
  • There is another separate group called "Senior Agents" who have access to this private forum as well. Membership to the senior agents group is by invite only for members who participate in project and content for the hacking community. YOU CANNOT BUY MEMBERSHIP TO THIS GROUP!

DIRECTIONS:

How do you subscribe to this group?

If you have decided that you like what you see and want to subscribe to this new group, you can do so by going into your "MY CONTROLS" section using the link located in the upper right hand corner of the forums. On the left hand side menu system you will see a section labeled "OPTIONS". Here you should click on "Purchase Paid Subscriptions" and you will see that there is only 1 subscription available. Select it and click the continue button which will take you to the PAYPAL payment gateway. At this time, we are only able to offer paypal as our payment gateway. New users will be presented with this option when they join the forums.

The payment and activation should be immediate assuming your paypal account works properly. If it does not, you can PM me with your information and I will look into it. When you come back to the forums, you should notice yourself in the member list for the new group.

CLOSING:

I know that some of you will not agree with this and think that everything should be free, but please understand that it is getting more and more difficult to sustain these ongoing costs which I have covered personally for the past 5+ years. I have come out of my own pocket for literally tens of thousands of dollars during this time. I have resisted advertising on binrev.com and want to continue to do so. I thought that this was a fair compromise that still provides the same service but offers you something in return for your donation. Between this and the ads that we have put on our smaller sites (most of you probably didn't even notice these either) we hope that we will be able to cover our monthly costs long into the future.

Thank you for your support, whether financial or participation in the forums. I understand that not everyone can afford to do this, but we appreciate everyone none-the-less. I look forward to a long life for the Revolution!

-StankDawg