I owe some of you an apology. Out of my pursuit for knowledge, I've started several communities, websites, IRC channels, and more over the past five or six years. One of my goals as a hacker has always been to unify fellow hackers and share knowledge. My goal has always been real. I hope some of you can truly see that.
One of these communities was NetXS and it's associated, private board xsBB. As some of you know, xsBB was up for... say... 3 or 4 months. Over its short life span it somehow managed to grew into a haven for phreaker and hacker knowledge for our era. A lot of really, really cool shit was posted on that board.
However, I was reckless with it. I know a lot of you are really pissed off that I took the board down without any warning... And that I left NetXS without any warning... and I disappeared without any warning.
Damn, I'm one flakey motherfucker.
I'm not really sure why I'm this way sometimes. Real life stuff comes up and I'm quick to shift between my online life as a hacker and my offline life. I have a lot of stuff going on in my offline life that most of you don't know about. I'm not your typical hacker. I'm also a breakdancer, a lover of hip-hop culture, a boyfriend, a college student, a pretty sociable person, and now an IT manager.
Hacking has always been a real part of my life. I still consider myself a hacker in the soul. However, it isn't all there is to my life. So I really struggled to keep everything balanced.
Still, it wasn't right for me to a) destroy all of the knowledge on that board, abandon a lot of people who looked up to me, c) leave good friends I made here in this very community, and d) pretty much ignore a lot of you and act like a total jackass.
So for all of that, I'm sorry. I feel pretty awful. I hope at least some of you can forgive me and see past my actions and see my intentions with a lot of this.
Why am I bringing this up now after all of this time? Well, I decided to check my e-mail account for lord 0xf and I found a few really angry messages from some people about my irresponsible actions. Many were upset. It hadn't occurred to me just how important the XS community was for many of you.
So again, I'm sorry.
I promise that in the future If I am going to get involved in a project, I'm going to make sure I have enough time to really commit to it.
Edited by Lord 0xf, 24 July 2010 - 10:44 AM.